Pornography of My Inner Universe
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Here's Your Issue Maker!!!

By Wild Ice
Lately, I've been awarded from class as the "Issue Maker" of the Year something... And it's all because of this thing about me having a partner..
What's odd is that I'm beginning to feel like everybody is thinking that I'm all about my other half... ANd it's pissing me off!!!!! HEY!!! THIS IS STILL ME!!!!
It all started from my group of friends at home... when they think there are changes with my personality... Okay, there are... But still, it's just ME.
Then there is this issue with me and my circle at school... It just so happens that I now hang out much with my superfriend, Kat... Don't I have the rights to do so? And am I closing my door upon them? Hell, no!!!.. Still, whether I go with them or with superfriend, it's just ME.
There was one time during Prof M's class when she called me and I was merely shocked (I was, as usual, daydreaming) because I did not know at first what to say. After that class, my friend Pau came up to me and told me, "It's because Ma'am knows you're inlove." I didn't know what to say because based on the context, my being inlove doesn't have anything to do with aseessing speaking skills. No, don't start another issue by saying I'm mad at Pau for this, it's just that I didn't get her at this part. It wasn't my Baby and I at that corner of the classroom. Still, it's just ME.
Then, my friend Anne texted me this afternoon asking what is up. I toldher I'm a little busy. And she inserted out of nowhere the topic of me being with my Baby. That part is true, I was with my partner that time. But what pissed me off is her joke that "I'm all about my Baby". I mean, what?! Do all people think this way?! Now, I got pissed off so I somehow responded to her message with some offensive/defensive remark. Still, it's just ME.
Why can't people know me now for just ME?!!! WHY DO ALL OF YOU ALWAYS HAVE TO BLAME MY BEING WITH ANOTHER?!!!! WHAT'S THE DEAL WITH IT?!!
I'm still ME!!! ME, ME, ME!!!! As I've said, I just got upgraded. But do people always have to blame my Baby for the things happening now with my life? Don't I have the rights to be known also as myself even though, yeah, I'm inlove?!
Hey, still, I take care of my ego which I've been establishing for years. So stop it. There is STILL JAMES ERIC existing on earth. I'm not complaining about my having another, I'm complaining about how people look at me now. It's just irritating. Hey, I still got a place on earth beside my place being with my Baby!!!
Still, it's just ME.
 

Just Like A Circus

By Wild Ice
This song had been on my mind for the last couple of days. It's a total Last Song Syndrome for me (I even had it playing on my mind during sex).
The first line of the song already caught me even before the whole song made me love it. "There's only two types of people in the world: the one's who entertain and the ones who observe". I guess this line already separates those people who mean something to the world and those who merely enjoy what's there and not do much (it may seem a little negative---at least in my point of view).
And I guess I would love to classify myslef in the first type. I'm not the type of person who would choose only to sit around and observe and merely criticize. And Britney made it imperative not to "stand there, watching me, follow me, show me what you can do.". This I'd love to tell to those people who LOVE TO LIMIT THEMSELVES. I mean, come on--GET A LIFE!!! LIVE!!!!
ENJOY LIFE!!!!
Why sit around and just look at me (like I'm some kind of freak.. hehe) and try criticizing me, telling me I'm wrong, telling me I'm immoral, telling me I'm this and that... I mean, is that all you can do?? Sit around and enjoy my show and spit stinky shits at me?? Well ask yourselves: what have you done great with your life, with yourself, with the community and with the world??? Have you started building up your dreams? Have you done your part as SOMEONE?? Or you'll just sit around being a mere observer??
Anyway, what I also love in this song is how the lyrics show this persona who loves to entertain people--who tries to put up a show like a circus and get everyone moving. That's how I want to do--But I don't think how I've been doing is enough. But I guess I'm on it--I just do it step by step. I just want to get people moving, awake people and make them realize how important it is to live in this world. Let's not be mere specks of dust in the universe. Let's make a difference.
Let's all be performers by our own ways.
How about you? How do you classify yourself in the two?