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Life Is A Rollercoaster

By Wild Ice
If I were to start of my blog right now with a reference to a roller coaster, it may turn out that I'm talking about my former professor, Prof M, whom I have mentioned a lot from my past blogs. But this one is different. This time I will be talking about the first half of the year. If you were to recall, two years ago I failed to make a summation--a tradition I do every end of the year to recount all of the major events that has happened to me within that year. This is probably a make-up for that lack (though this turns out as my half-year summation--a first in my blogging history!)
Back in late 90's, Ronan Keating, a singer who used to be a member of Boyzone, released a single entitled "Life is A Rollercoaster". When I was younger, I had a sort of a feeble mind. But there were moments that the cosmos would give me the power to think with my soul. When I heard the song, I spent the next half of the day thinking about life being a rollercoaster in many ways.
(Despite the long and boring introduction, I shall be glad that you are still reading this part of my blog. Thank you.)
Early this year, I have been through a painful break up. It felt like one of the most heartbreaking moment of my life. But I'm sure right now, despite not being able to compromise with the other half due to "pride" (or shall I say "fear"), I can say I have moved on. At the first quarter of the year, I have filed my resignation to my recent work. Unemployment led me to insecurity of my future. But I'm glad I was able to find one now.
Close to the end of the first half of the year, the biggest inspiration of my life passed away. To all honesty, I hated how my mother died even if she was in a hospital. There was supposed to be sorrow at the very moment she died but I had blood boiling in my veins because of some scenes that did not come of my favor.
Yet, I have my friends to be there for me. I realized that there are a lot of them, FRIENDS--REAL FRIENDS-- who are there to stand by me when I need them, who are there to have fun with me, do stupid things for and with me, and most of all, UNDERSTAND ME for my acts. It is not that they tolerate me, nor it is that they pretend to, but because they were MATURE, WISE, and SMART. And did I mention MATURE? MATURE.
MATURE.
This half of the year feels like being in the head of someone bipolar. I come to a point to stop and think, "Will this quick acceleration of ups and downs drive me hard core mad?". But I say no. The last time I checked my brain (which was 0.21 seconds ago), I'm still sane but not perfectly sane or else--I'd be DAMN BORING!
Yes, Mr. Keating, life is a ride with astonishing shifts and drops and we ain't breaking until we're aching. This is a ride in real life. You can not go off board because you are going to die literally. We just have to deal with these. And Mr. Keating, I think you should meet Leanne Rhymes, because after your song, I just want to stress out that "Life Goes On". All of these battles will only make us strong. So keep on living! It is really a crazy ride--but admit it, the reason why it is in an amusement park is it is THRILLING!!