By Wild Ice
Nobody's perfect and even if we would create an ideal perfect somebody (lover, friend or a mere sorbetero), still there isn't really that person whom we could proclaim "perfect".
I had this thought bothering my mind for the last few months when I had been evaluating and discovering qualities from people I know. There are those friends whom I thought have the same qualities as I do---those who think almost the same way as I do. Then I ended up noticing that even they eat their own words even if they criticize other people.
Then I also know this person with whom I talk about almost everything (and I mean everything)---even my deepest thoughts and philosophies about life and he would be so good in listening and saying his own side about the topic. It turns out that now that person is soooo consumed with material things, one of the qualities we have discussed before and which he also hated BEFORE. Just a few hours ago I declared that he is mega materialistic and close-minded.
Then I know this another person whom I thought is sooo deep when all of a sudden I notice that he has this FAKE side and that he gets soo naive by thinking he could fool us when actually, I was TECHNICALLY and SCIENTIFICALLY aware that he was merely creating his OWN GHOST LITERALLY. Excuse me, Sir, but, I'm not that dumb enough to know how a tape recorder functions.
There are many incidents in which I get turned off by the characteristics of some of the people I know. Even the people I thought are worth the respect would turn out to be a little bent and silly. Even the people whom I thought have a good view about some concepts would turn out to be people who eat their words (unconsciously and/or not) or people who still have those insufficient considerations about some topics.
And then I declared to myself: Anyone can have his or her own share of imperfections. We cannot look for a person which fits our ideals in a hundred percent. Nobody can be perfect. Somehow, we have to take into consideration that each of us still make mistakes and that all of us has his or her own flaws.
If there are flaws which should not be tolerated, then it's up to us to make action for it (tell your friend that his ideas are wrong, or tell your lover that her being too emotional doesn't help both of you, or tell the sorbetero that his scoop is way too little and that he should also wash his hands when he sells ice cream). But whatever we do, somehow, what keeps this world balanced is imperfection itself.
By Wild Ice
Nobody's perfect and even if we would create an ideal perfect somebody (lover, friend or a mere sorbetero), still there isn't really that person whom we could proclaim "perfect".
I had this thought bothering my mind for the last few months when I had been evaluating and discovering qualities from people I know. There are those friends whom I thought have the same qualities as I do---those who think almost the same way as I do. Then I ended up noticing that even they eat their own words even if they criticize other people.
Then I also know this person with whom I talk about almost everything (and I mean everything)---even my deepest thoughts and philosophies about life and he would be so good in listening and saying his own side about the topic. It turns out that now that person is soooo consumed with material things, one of the qualities we have discussed before and which he also hated BEFORE. Just a few hours ago I declared that he is mega materialistic and close-minded.
Then I know this another person whom I thought is sooo deep when all of a sudden I notice that he has this FAKE side and that he gets soo naive by thinking he could fool us when actually, I was TECHNICALLY and SCIENTIFICALLY aware that he was merely creating his OWN GHOST LITERALLY. Excuse me, Sir, but, I'm not that dumb enough to know how a tape recorder functions.
There are many incidents in which I get turned off by the characteristics of some of the people I know. Even the people I thought are worth the respect would turn out to be a little bent and silly. Even the people whom I thought have a good view about some concepts would turn out to be people who eat their words (unconsciously and/or not) or people who still have those insufficient considerations about some topics.
And then I declared to myself: Anyone can have his or her own share of imperfections. We cannot look for a person which fits our ideals in a hundred percent. Nobody can be perfect. Somehow, we have to take into consideration that each of us still make mistakes and that all of us has his or her own flaws.
If there are flaws which should not be tolerated, then it's up to us to make action for it (tell your friend that his ideas are wrong, or tell your lover that her being too emotional doesn't help both of you, or tell the sorbetero that his scoop is way too little and that he should also wash his hands when he sells ice cream). But whatever we do, somehow, what keeps this world balanced is imperfection itself.
By Wild Ice
All of a sudden, each of us was already planning about our future; Where we will be; how we will be; what we will be. In just a snap, I'm already a graduate, among the thousands of seniors in that qudrangle that evening. But which was more torturing: The oh-so-loooong graduation night or the oh-so-looong years of, well, struggling?
Being a sophomore and meeting up the people I would be spending for three years, I was trying to read up their characteristics and at first I thought I was lost in a place where people were not much interesting. But I didn't know that as time went by, the class was filled with a fascinating kaleidoscope of characters who exposed themselves in each of his and her own way.
Bonds tightened with the camps (with the storm and mud as part of the struggles) and plays we had to do. The groupings were well synchronized---each of us were able to communicate with other beings and soon after, we were able to confirm each other in our multiply and friendster accounts as FRIENDS.
Third year in the university, second year together, our class met The Terror. Then we started sliding down the rollercoaster by seeing each of our weaknesses, by the daily anguish, and the late night tasks caused by this evil carrier of mischief (don't tell HER I said this---hahaha!!!). Even as the storm hit the towns, nobody stopped from working on that damned project (a collection) we had to pass. I'm telling you there were hell lots of times we were bombarded by shouts, yells, and whips of angry tongue in the class. And it was amazing to find out that one thing made us unite: We prayed. (Seriously.. We were praying as if a missile is about to hit our classroom)
We became immune the next year and we went on doing what we can do: to TRY. Everything was in a hurry. And then suddenly we were there being called by one of our favorite professor onstage.
There were overnights... Working on a project.
Parties... Birthday songs were sung.
Tears... Conflicts between friends... Reconciliation...
Issues were raised.. Issues ended... Cats were biting (hahaha!! I just had to add that one up!!!)... You see your friend for the first time not well-dressed.. You see your friend drunk for the first time... You see you friend so glamorous for the first time... You see all of them rushing for the attendance on one moment and next they shall be rushing for a photo opportunity (trademark of our section!!!)... You see your friends laugh, cry, scowl, get embarassed.... You see them everyday..
Then you see them wearing their togas...
Then you see them in the review for the Licensure Exam...
Then you might not see some of them anymore.. We start living our separate lives again... It's not that it ends there.. We just move on... Yet, I bet nobody wants to lose communication... So the friendship extends...
You see them once more... and more.. ^_^
Congrats classmates!!!
By Wild Ice
Okay. I admit. I've done the bigger damage in the argument that just happened a few days ago. Yes, it was also my fault: I always lose my temper that I start to go ballistic with everything and my wild side erupts non-stop that I even miss some stuff to consider.
I should've not let my temper control me... My anger had always been my weakness... I'm that type of person who easily loses patience. And you can agree with me, ladies and gentlemen, that it's not healthy and that I need to change that part of me.
So, even if those 'people' would not forgive me, I just want to say I'm sorry for that (Gloria Arroyo mode---but in a more truthful manner). I forgot to consider some other stuff because I was deaf with my own noise caused by the hyperventilating anger. I AM SO SORRY.
Yet, I'm hoping that YOU realize YOUR OWN MISTAKES. The fact that YOU had been showing that YOU ARE (SOME SORT) of a detractor of our relationship was just too much to bear anymore. And please put it into mind that even Joshua is getting hurt of the things that you do considering the fact that both of YOU are so close. Now he feels that he is the REASON FOR ALL OF THE MISUNDERSTANDINGS (Now I remember what you had told him before---I knew you half meant to say that you wished you did not introduce him to us).
Just one recommendation: Self-reflect. I've done my part. But have you?
By Wild Ice
Some people don't know how to handle situations... Some people don't know how to go to NBI office in Carriedo to secure an NBI clearance... who is so good in finding the place of her date yet don't know how to go to NBI alone and had to get me as chaperone.. I've already agreed (though at first I didn't want to because I had another "appointment")... But that night there was a change of plans because I found out that I had to go to my school the next day for our general clearance.. I told this to her but she just hang up on me... My energy in explaining was wasted because---how could she be so dumb as to think that I'm cancelling our meeting because, according to her, I have a sex appointement and just used the school as alibi?!!! I mean, hello!! It's my school we're talkign about here---my priority!!! And for crying out loud, even if it's not true, please understand----I'm not single anymore!! And in any ways, I've been DOING my best to give undivided attention to FRIENDS and to my SPECIAL SOMEONE (yet, THEY haven't realized the difference andthe one who should be more prioritized)... I mean, come on--are you sick??!! I HAVE A GENERAL CLEARANCE ON THAT DAY YOU CAN GO FOLLOW ME ALL DAY and the only meeting my special someone and I have is the evening!! And wait, you're already graduating--yet you still don't know how to be independent??!!! I went in the NBI before for the same reason ALONE and I even got a little lost but I was smart enough to find my way.. But you, your ignorance and lack of social skills is not a reason to ask for assistance. YOU SHOULD BE MATURE BY NOW!! But when it comes to finding your eye-ball partners, you're so good in directions... God, is sex your only motivation??!! *sigh*
Then you, instead of telling me her problem, just talked to someone else.........
Some people should know how to listen to the opinions of other people... Because he would say he "knows my point in the argument" without even consulting me... I mean,duh??!! That's merely guessing!!! And hell yeah I know you're mad at ME and US... I don't knwo the reason but there's one--it's just about money.. HAHAHAHAHAHA!!! How could you equate friendship with MONEY?!!! You're funny!!!! Wow, and the many times you don't have fare to go home.. you'll just say it when we are already going home--what a strategy.. You've used that many times.. And you just spend it over cigarettes.... Then just smoke and walk home!!! Not all people are rich like your PARTNER!!! Stop being TOOOOOOOO proud that you have a wealthy partner... And please, listen to our opinions when we want to say something.. This is what happens:
YOU: *This is my opinion*
ME: *I understand your opinion.. here's MY opinion about your opinion*
YOU: *I don't take your opinion--I want to assert ONLY my opinion--PERIOD*
Oh, and when you say something, think about it carefully. You usually say somethings which are meaningless, naive--and you'll say you don't mean some of them... God, be careful of the words you say!!! Use your head first...
Oh, and you've longed to be mentioned in my blog---HERE IT IS!!! Congratulations!!!
Some people ought to think, think, think.. And they ought to talk to me because I had been so approachable to them for years---I always welcome comments even if I have a very high temper.. But hell don't be scared of me!!! Come in front of me and tell it to my face--not like that that you would conspire about me... especially that you WERE my FRIENDS!!!
Wow!! That's very hyperventilating!!!
BRAVO!!! Now you've got me sooooo damn mad!!! I'm giving you the chance to kill me and talk about me---say nasty things about me and laugh at me... GO!!! Give me your best shot!!!
Because now you've proved me that you are just SOME PEOPLE... That's all you are...
By Wild Ice
This is it.
The ceremony has ended. I've finally finished my role as a plain student. It's not that I'll stop learning but it's just that I'm done being dependent by being JUST a student.
I'm a graduate!!
Hell, I've waited all these years to break loose from these chains that had been holding me from becoming dependent of myself and becoming free. Now I could finally go do whatever (almost). One thing I have to do now is find a good job so that I could support my family and me.
And I have plans...
So many plans... I just can't wait to accomplish all of these plans. I've been thinking about using this profession (teaching) as a stepping stone in reaching my goals and now that I'm one (or two) steps closer to these goals, it makes me want to go to the bathroom in excitement (really, that's how I usually feel when I'm excited--haha!)..
Now.. Hmmm.. Let's start.. I've got one job training waiting for me.. Then, if ever I get hired (HOPEFULLY I GET HIRED), I'll save up... Then.. hmmm.... wait a few years and get married... Hahaha, yeah probably.. And in between these stages in the process, I'll be injecting my major plans (to destroy the world?? hehe..)... Of course, I don't live for myself alone... I care a lot about the world and what's happening...
BWAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHA!!!!
By Wild Ice
What's odd is that we, as students, have done a lot of things to be able to graduate: defend theses, term papers, occasional papers, study, photocopy, review, take examinations, observe faulty parallelisms (like this part of my blog, dragon slay with professors and so much more...Yet, just now that we only have a few days to go to graduate did we realize we have sooooooo much more to do...And 'do' here means PAY.. PAY PAY PAY.. we have lots of things to pay just so we could fucking graduate!!!I'm half complaining because right now my idea of being able to graduate is being able to pay all of the expenses for graduation.. Is this really how it's supposed to be? We should pay a lot of stuff so we could graduate?So our efforts in STUDYING doesn't end there?Alright, I'm indeed complaining because of the fact that I'm having financial problems (who else in the world of internet connection would dare say they are? I guess only me)... But really, I'm just pissed that we suddenly have debts at some expenses for the university.. WHATTTTT?!!! WE HAVE DEBTS WITHOUT EVEN US KNOWING?!!! WHY ONLY TELL US THAT NOW?!!!!They said these debts are from the expenses supposed to be spent for the "laboratory" for our educational technology course (in which we even barely use anything else than an Overhead Projector and a Television)... Damn.. I just don't understand all the things happening.. All of those expenses which are suddenly growing like mushrooms in your bedroom--shocking and odd... We don't study to graduate.. we pay...
